Cross of lace

how well designed

artificially handcrafted 

this cross of lace

how comforting
God given
warm embrace

how  well spoken
words of love
Jesus spoke

How powerfull
the wonders
he performed

How loving
He took
our yoke
from us

and nailed it
on
this cross of wood

and cleansed our souls
and left our sinns
out of time
forgood
matthew 11:28-30

Comforting verses

To ponder upon the wonder

Of Your nearness

When You seem so far away

Dear father light a light in me

Divided in itself

feelings are mixed up

As i drink this bitter cup

Dear father light a light in me

As my faith has to compete for the priority

belonging to this vast minority

Who’s cells no longer do behave as should be

Dear Father light a light in me.
  

As health is growing thinner

And i realize I’m an absolute beginner

Dear Father light a light in me.

For i still ponder upon the wonder

Of Your nearness.

december 2019

Sky view

Last night I saw heaven
by a beautiful great light
I was completely enclosed
it was so bright and pleasant at the same time
it kept the cold out
love poured in at me
as the warmth of a fire
that pulls through your bones.


His voice made me cry naturally
not out of guilt or fear but out of pure joy
that was poured on me from within
straight into heaven
as if everything had to flow back
to that one source
from where everything came.

I also saw the trees
of the knowledge of good and evil
even more beautiful than the most beautiful trees
I had seen on earth.
Decorated with the sweetest fruits
now I understood Eva.
The angel was still there with his double-edged sword.
And watched over those who entered.

between cherubs
he stood there
so impenetrable and transparent at the same time

my coffin became like a beautiful work of art
hung a canopy wall
I looked down on it from the balcony above.
Was I really so flat my Lord?
It didn't matter what hung there.
But it didn't matter anymore
I was invited was no longer tired
I had covered my earthly burdens
My last words said
He was already there before I entered
Come on my child
then the party can begin.

Bodleian

Bodleian library

knowledge congealed

shelved wisdom

books piled up

words unspoken

trapped in pages

waiting for ages

thoughts written down

history touching present

we are here to read 

to study

to learn

 to gain

wisdom

and to touch the magic of knowledge

Alzheimer coda

Alzheimer

It is like missing the gap

and don’t even mis it.

a contra-dictionary to the fullest

brought to you by the fallen state we’re all in

creating plaques al over the brain

as your memories fall down like a  disturbing rain

no pill or syringe offering relief

Alzheimer

even able to wipe out what one believes

to wipe out whom we love and  lifelong cared for

its like a piece of music written  without  coda

losing the notes bar by bar

even tempo is slowing down unaware of

every nick  of time is gone before you even know it.

First sign is the man of which you forgot the name

or when he had his last birthday

Carkeys keys in general

still knowing where they’re used for 

but forgetting  where you’ve put them

Alzheimer

is forgetting words

is forgetting functions of daily used tools

not remembering why using a fork or spoon

is like eating with your hands

grabbing like a child for his food

Alzheimer is fading out

 without reprise

no encore

not even knowing

you have left the stage for good.

through an unseen door

I sincerely hope and pray 

you will see from eye to eye

behind the edge of time 

and be embedded in His Grace.

Rocketery C.S Lewis De Quarantaine van het kwaad.

Quote speaks for itself!

C.S Lewis

Christianity is a religion of comfort – but it does not begin there. It begins with the dismay of realizing we stand opposed to the power behind the universe. Comfort will come, but only as a result of seeking truth. –Comfort is not found by seeking it. Realizing the truth of Christianity and how God works will bring comfort.